Well every time my seriously serious attempt to write a blog fails.....excuses for it are lined up, but as a lecturer in a medical college I dont accept the excuses of my students who fail to do the given homework why should i be partial to myself. Always thought to write down my heart felt feelings in the blog ...but later stepped back fearing that everyone around would know my actual thoughts going on in the mind. When i meant actual thoughts t actually meant my true un-manipulated mind. I guess most of the hard core blog writers would accept it ...that whatever is written on their blogs is usually a little re-framed from the reality ( i know most of the times its the true story ). What i mean to say is we usually write the only those things which we feel we can announce to the world openly while some dark truths remain in the mind forever with us till the grave.
Well my truth which i cant pour in here is not all that dark or black but somewhere between the white and black so u can say grey or may be light- gray. Most of my really close friends know it so it cant be a complete hidden secret. So many times i thought i need to put it up on the blog and ask for advice, solution ...but the tragedies were too enough to even let me open my blog site to pen down my feelings. It was so much of a set back of events in a row...that i just wanted to meet God in person and ask him ....why me ? How long more ? Reading positive books...distracting my mind, hearing enthusiastic songs.....etc etc But i am not someone to give up so easily ...so still hoping for the best days ever to back in my life
0 comments:
Post a Comment